Nicholas will carry on through the Nicholas Hand Memorial Fund www.nicholashandmemorialfund.org in order to provide for other young men and women in the community.
Nicholas enjoyed drawing and writing. Here are some of his writings:
"Never Lose Faith"
"Only God can judge me"
"Change for the good"
"Leave it in his hands and he will show you the way"
There are two people that will always be there for me
All the wrongs, faults, destruction... everything
They will always be there & now I know that
This is never ending love
Mom & Dad God Bless
I will live to die
But will always know
Your always there
Tough times, hard times
All the time your love, for me will never end
My trouble never stopped
All the money you had to spend
That one day will come, when you will see
I never forget
Tough times, hard times, all the time you love
Will never end the times, the money, the effort, never stopped coming
So now it's time for me to show you
The never ending doubts you had were right & changed me to be the loving & caring man I am
For time I will never have to see the other side, the side of fear, hate, sadness,
& not knowing.
I have seen the other side & you pulled me away to be the man I am today
And for that anything and everything can be done & if it wasn't for you I would be nothing
I have gave pain & suffrage to the people I love,
But I also paid the consequences...But, not the same way they did & felt.
I want to give back all the faults I caused and hope for forgiveness.
So hopefully what I can do, I will receive some of the grief that I can get rid of.
The Cross Says:
Home Is In The Faith
Show Me The Light And I'll Never Be Blinded Again
The Only Way is Gods Way
Nicholas was into art and liked nothing more than getting tattoos. One prominent tattoo he had was across his stomach and it said:
"Never Lose Faith"
To Nicholas this meant:
With faith the below poem helps us through the times knowing that Nicholas is now at peace and free
If Tomorrow Starts Without Me....
If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you care for me, and how much I care for you,
and each time that you think of me I know you’ll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready in heaven far above,
and that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I’d always thought I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for and so much yet to do.
it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for a while,
I’d say goodbye and hug you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things that I’d miss come tomorrow.
I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through Heaven’s gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity and all I’ve promised you,
Today your life on earth is past but here it’s starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last.
and since each day’s the same, there’s no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, so trusting, so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
And you have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me?"
So if tomorrow starts without me, don’t think we’re far apart,
for every time you think of me, please know I’m in your heart.
by David Romano
When you look at the words they spell out the word "Life" when Nick would turn his arm over they spelled out the word
Constellations: Cygnus 'the Swan'
Thank You Aunt Pam & Family for the Star